Another set of Reverb 11 prompts and responses for your enjoyment.
What Goals Have You Achieved?
I wrote before about not having set any goals this year and sitting here without anything significant to tell you about is really depressing. 2012 is all about goal setting for me so I’m hoping to shout from the rooftops about all the wonderful things I set out and achieved next year! I will say though that I did commit to not committing to the Race for the Cure this year. I had organized and walked it the two years after my diagnosis and a part of me did so because I felt if I didn’t then something bad would happen. I walked out of fear. Not strength or pride. I’m glad I’ve put Team McLovin to rest, for now.
What Soothes Your Soul?
Music soothed my soul as a teenager. Night after night, rotating Morrissey, The Cure, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, George Michael, Bonnie Raitt, and Eric Clapton behind my closed bedroom door. When I finally got a car, I’d play the same CDs – now throwing Pink Floyd and Guns ‘n Roses into the mix – driving past a particular boy’s house or stopping in on a friend at work at the mall. Hearing those same CDs conjures up many memories and still very much soothes my soul today.
What Movies Have You Seen?
Movie dates are few and far between these days. We were in a rhythm of renting movies on demand on Saturday nights for a while so even though these weren’t seen at a theater this is my list:
Crazy Stupid Love (one of the best, Ryan Gossling = perfection)
Hangover 2 (a couple of funny moments but otherwise terrible)
Lincoln Lawyer (not a bad Matthew McConaughey flick for *I think* going straight to video)
The Dilemma (when did ‘Nona become so unlikable? She was at her best in Heathers – a true favorite of mine)
Happy Feet Two (seen at the theater and was downright awful – three year old in tow, obviously)
The Switch (looked funny is so different from being funny)
Take Me Home Tonight (’80’s themed, hilarious. Loved Dan Fogler in this movie!)
Something Borrowed (Kate Hudson and Ginnifer Goodwin were so incredible unlikable)
The Help (really, really good. “You is kind. You is smart. You is important.”)
Seriously, rent Crazy Stupid Love if you haven’t seen it. And The Help.
What Accomplishments Were Made?
I’m not sure how this is different than “What goals have you achieved?” I simply have no answers for questions like these. It’s kind of like when my dad calls and asks “What’s new?” and I don’t have an answer. I’m not setting out to accomplish anything significant on a day-to-day basis with the exception of my to-do list. But picking up a prescription and getting groceries are not interesting discussion topics. Thus, 2012 = lots of little short term goals and a few biggies that are worthy of talking about.
What Are you Most Grateful For?
I am most grateful for making it to October 23, 2011. It was my three year anniversary of being cancer-free. Three years is a significant mark. Now if I can just stay NED for another two years I’ll be really grateful.
What Scares You?
Not staying cancer-free. Almost daily I read an article or a blog post or a message in a thread that someone has just been diagnosed with mets. Mets is short for metastatic cancer. It’s when your original cancer has now been found somewhere else in your body – spine, lungs, brain, bones. Cancer cells that survived chemo have occupied a new organ. Mets is incurable and cancer always wins. That shit haunts me.
What Brings You Peace?
The thing that makes me the most peaceful is seeing the sun dance on the ocean. Where the water looks like it’s been sprinkled with glitter. I love those moment and long for them.
What Makes You Smile
That kid of mine makes me smile. She pushes my buttons, hits, asks a million questions, backtalks and fibs but she can make me smile in a hot second. And melt my heart even quicker.
11 days left!