Yesterday marked the official mid-way point in the #iwillrockthis weight-loss challenge! I can’t believe we’re half done and mostly because I am NO WHERE near where I wanted to be at the end of week four. My weight-loss goal – and for the sake of being totally transparent – was to lose 16 lbs. by the end of 8 weeks. I’ve fluctuated between 1-3 lbs. — TOTAL. Totally depressing. Especially because I have been exercising, and working with a trainer, and eating WAY BETTER than I have in a long time. And I’ve got zilch to show for it. It might be time to adjust my weight loss goals.
So, I’ve considered throwing in the towel but it really changes from hour to hour. Like, my mornings are great…they start of good until I start craving a cherry danish from the donut shop. I got around that particular want for a short while when I found dried cherries fulfilled that tartness I wanted when I added them to oatmeal. But lately, my breakfast habits have been shit. I’m having coffee only and find myself ravenous by 10am. Cue the cherry danish. Lunch and dinner are easy. I usually make good choices there. But then night time falls and I want snacks like chocolate bars dipped in peanut butter. *Guilty*
I say to myself – “the bikini is not happening so give up already!” But I don’t want to give up. I want to keep working, even if I’m just chipping away at it. Really though, the bikini is definitely not happening. So, I’m making a small adjustment. I’m looking at August 1. I’m heading to NYC for the annual BlogHer conference and MORE THAN ANYTHING I just want to feel confident in my body – even if it’s wrapped up tight in Spanx.
I so totally know how wrong this photo is. Besides sharing with the internet that my bathroom is a pig-sty, I’m pointing out every single thing I think is wrong with myself. It’s totally, 100% self-depricating. Whatev. It’s honestly what I see and think throughout the day so why not share it with you.
Will I ever get there?